Not dumb. There were a lot of different reasons why I ended up leaving the last time I did, time being perhaps the thing that really pushed me over the edge, but I also remember feeling that it seemed hard to know how to engage with some groups to a meaningful degree. It starts feeling like some of that magic of infinite possibility isn't there, that things aren't as organic as they used to be, and that just sucks.

I don't have solutions, but you're not stupid for feeling this way. That much I'm certain of.